Accepting My Reality

An excerpt from 'Accepting My Reality' March 27, 2015

Wow this is hard, writing this blog, exposing myself and my emotions to the world is terrifying. I’ve spent the better part of the last 10 years determined not to be defined by Lupus, so much so that I found it difficult to share my diagnosis with anyone who did not need to know.

I have been relentless in my pursuit of a “normal” life, allowing myself to live my life defined by the expectations of others. I thought that giving in to the pain and fatigue was equivalent to giving in to the disease. This has left me not only frustrated and unfulfilled but has lead to an inevitable decline in my health. In March 2014, I gave up my job in Finance, tired of the daily struggle to survive, I felt it was time to acknowledge my condition, the needs of my body and strive to live a more fulfilling life.

About Me

I was diagnosed with Lupus in 2005, and over the years my list of ailments has grown to include Asthma, Antiphospholipid Syndrome, Polycystic Ovarian syndrome but it was the diagnosis of idiopathic Gastroparesis in 2010 that left me feeling as though I was staring into an abyss. Eating became a painful daily struggle, which included severe stomach pain, reflux, vomiting, diarrhoea, constipation, sleepless nights and worsening fatigue. I felt so sick and tired, that surviving a work day seemed torturous.

I’ve always been determined to find a way to live successfully with Lupus.

Inspired by the many stories of people who have managed to make significant improvements....

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